my mom just came in to inform me that the gray creek hall baby party is today, and then proceeded to put her head on my shoulder and mock-weep and then say she hopes someone is taking pictures. i don't understand the relationship between my mom and i anymore. sometimes i feel like we're best friends who can talk about anything but secretly despise each other. sometimes she just has intense mood swings and i can't see them coming at all and it's like a bullet in my stomach and i despise that. sometimes i feel like she's just a sheep, just doing what the other authority figures are telling her to do, dealing with me the way they think i should be dealt with, as if somehow they know what's best for me. but i think my mom is stronger than she thinks she is at this time. i think at some point she'll realize that she needs to let go of me in some ways, although i'll never ever want to lose her as a friend.
